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i am so happy that people start to appriciate my photos and i thank you God for my friends and parents who supported me whole my life, my life become so much better

Hello everyone, christmas is coming and even i live in tropical country, i can feel cold atmosphere and winter events is coming! for a long time that i haven’t post in this blog, many things happened with me,

here i am with a new hobby, collecting doll. these little cuties called Pullip, designed in Korea, Sold in Japan and made in China (LOL) they slightly have big heads that make them so cute, speaking of which, she is my first pullip doll, Pink Romantic Alice, i give her name, Hilda.

ever since i have Hilda on my side, some controversial happens whether because i am a man and i’m playing with dolls, skeptical people appears and they sometimes buzzez me off, but i don’t care, i used to be a person who cares about what human tells about me, but now i won’t and i don’t care about them too. if they call me mad, they themselves are madness for me. (got inspiration from playing Alice Madness, such a great game though)

my second doll is on the way to meet me, i maybe will meet her at 26 December, but i’m sure she will come faster.

speaking of tarot, i will seldom collecting tarot, i have to focus on my doll hobbies, and i only buy tarot that i really wished to, or maybe stop collecting new decks, let’s just see what i wanted to do next.

oh for how long i didn’t update this blog?

this is one of my assignment, grotesque illlustration, inspiration comes from a duck and a ballerina. called her Jormungard, dance when the moon strings out the lanterns so she can become human and dance

i am so happy, i have a new hobby, it’s a Pullip-addiction hobby, i got my own first doll named Hilda, she is the limited Pink Romantic Alice Pullip, she is so pretty and so popular in my surroundings!!

to add more than that, i decided to asked my friend’s boyfriend to get the Lunatic Queen Pullip ( the pullip that catch my eyes first before the romantic Alice) she is so pretty, my friend told me that maybe he’s not gonna buy it for me but when i ask Paulina Tarot, she seemed showing me positive aspect. in the picture, there is a guy holding two flowers inside the flowers come the soul of maidens. i am so happy, this is a good sign that the guy will help me get the Lunatic Queen!! thank you God, if you ever read this blog, i am so happy that i am lucky enough to get these pretty ladies.

next maybe DAL Lunatic Alice, she’s kinda angry though!

so much wish to fullfilled!

the hen seemed happy to greet me in the card. after a lot of lost things and my mom’s robbery accidents ( The Tower) finally the sun came rises, even if there isn’t any sun, just collect dragonflies to make one! said the hen to me

here i post things that make me happy:

this called milkis. lotte made it, it’s kind of milk soda.n this was recommended by my friends to me, when i take a sip from it, it taste like the elixir of heaven, gotta try this, it’s a bit expensive though

i just got this, from Kinokuniya Grand Indonesia and Plaza Senayan’s branch, this called crank music box, oh the shape is so classy and if you crank it you feel the nostalgic, bittersweet atmosphere that can make you blank when you crank it, i am going to collect this as much as i can. i’m looking the fly me to the moon song. recently i got the fur elise and the sound was perfect!!

just yesterday after sports with my friend, we decided to take lunch at Ramen 38 Ramen Sanpachi
i ate the aka ramen and my friend ate the Jigoku. for all the atmosphere seemed nice and what makes me a little dissapointed is that the ramen is lesser than the soup. the taste i think a bit plain. but it was a good meal that i enjoyed. review 3 of 5 stars if i have to give.

i have been thinking when i got these cards appear in my random pick. the stars, the devil, and the moon.

intuitively, i feel that when first meet my ex-crusher/ call that person ai ren, now i feel like the starts is coming and little thing inside me whispering that i can possibly fall in love with ai ren. hope the stars will help me grant my wish as they shine brightly cuddling the darkness of the night

the devil tells about my aggressiveness attitude when i approach with ai ren. i give all my things all my precious, even my heart, but in the end ai ren is rejecting me and won’t approach me and start to detest me

and the moon
feels cold when an owl maiden is keep staring at the moon, cold, biased by the mouse shadow at the moon’s surface. possess, i feel possesive, wish that was just an illusion that cannot be forget, but too hurtful to remember too..

alas i thought maybe i am a knight of swords..
my aggresiveness was a sword or maybe an endless arrows
and
my possesiveness was a fish net that never caught the fish

but then

i wish upon a star
that someday ai ren wil love me.
love me till the end of my life.

amen.

i am in a total shock!

i checked on 28 October 2011, there was 59 clicks on my blog!! what happened to my blog, why it is so wide viewers? i do not know myself, but i thank God that there was this 59 clicks on my blog and i don’t know who you are but i thank you for reading at my blog!!

oh yeah, here i posted some pics about Sumpah Pemuda Memorial Event that was held in school that was near to my mom’s store, the kids were all cute, walking in a middle of street using hero’s costume!!

a reading for my ex crush

here’s what fantastic menagerie tarot told me about the ex crush

1. the person was feeling stuck with its feelings, whether it approach you or back up, it was confused.

2. the person always remembering your moments with it, hope dreams, wills, hatred will come back as usual, but a dream is a dream.

3. it hope it’s feeling can be gone and it feels that it can forget you, but a love is already being born.

huh? really?

Bab kedua dari cerita ini: http://forbiddenblackrose.wordpress.com/2011/09/23/pedang-yang-tumpul-cawan-yang-tumpah/

Ditulis oleh Michael Vincent October 2011

Tepat saat itu juga, mata Loif yang sedang kosong karena melamun mulai terisi oleh tekstur tengkorak dengan hiasan klasik dengan warna abu dingin menghiasi bola matanya yang berwarna cokelat tua berkilau.

“ Apa-apaan sih, Dininma?” gerutunya menyilangkan kedua tangannya ke meja dan menyembunyikan kepalanya serasa tidur di meja.

Lelaki ini tampaknya mulai geram dengan tingkah laku teman perempuannya yang sepertinya memiliki dunia sendiri.

“ Ini gua pinjemin Bohemian Gothic nya buat elu, tampaknya si Bohemian lagi pengen deket-deket sama elu” jawabnya sambil menarik kursi dan duduk bersebrangan dengan Loif. Kelas masih belum banyak manusia karena masih setengah jam lebih awal dari jadwal masuk. Kemeja kotak merah yang dikenakan Loif mulai menggesek meja yang diberi triplek tipis putih yang tergores-gores oleh cutter mahasiswa-mahasiswa desain.

“ dasar cewek freak, gua nggak percaya gitu-gituan, lagian ngapain sih elu kepo amat, ikut campur urusan orang, gua udah nggak ada apa-apa..” Loif menunjukkan posisi tidak nyaman karena kehadiran Dininma.

“ Fuh padahal kemaren si Bohemian udah kasih tau yang bener kan soal elu. Bukannya gua freak tapi beneran loh Bohemian lagi mau nempel sama elu, mungkin ada hal yang menarik nanti terjadi..” Loif mengangkat seluruh badannya dan badannya segera menuju ke pintu keluar kelas, tampaknya ia ingin mengacuhkan Dininma.

“ ish ini cowok auban banget, hei tunggu, dengerin dulu dong!” Dininma mengambil blazer marunnya dan ikut mengejar Loif. Suara dentuman kaki yang keras dan cepat terdengar di sepanjang koridor kelas.

“ Ya ampun jadi orang jangan jutek-jutek amat kali, Loif tunggu!!” Dininma berusaha mengejar-ngejar dengan pouch pink berisi kartu tarotnya. Tak sempat Loif berbalik ke depan untuk melihat, ia bertubrukan dengan seseorang sampai jatuh ke bawah dan saling menindih. Sepertinya ia menindih dengan seorang pria. Dininma menghentikan langkahnya, pouch pinknya terbuka dan keluarlah tiga kartu menyelami keramik koridor kelas. Pria itu mulai membuka matanya, ia melihat sosok Loif, Loif pula terkejut dengan pria ini.

“ Elu.. elu kan..,” pinta Loif segera bangkit dan menarik tangan pria itu.

“Ko Loif. Wah udah lama banget gak ketemu, masih inget aku kan?” pinta dirinya, ya tak salah lagi, mukanya mirip dengan Pien. Ia mengenakan kaos hitam polos dengan jeans, berbeda dengan kakaknya yang rambutnya pendek tak berponi, ia justru jabrik dengan gelnya.

“ Thon!” tersentak Loif bertambah-tambah,

“ Hei-hei kok kaget amat, tahun ini saya baru mau mulai kuliah lho. Nih bareng si engko sedeng.”

Pien mengenakan jaket hitamnya berjalan dengan cepat dan mengacuhkan Loif, begitu pula sebaliknya Loif berbuat demikian. Thon sepertinya menyadari adanya keanehan antara mereka berdua.

“ Lagi berantem sama koko aku ya, ko?” tanya Thon dengan mudahnya menyelutuskan pertanyaan itu.

Dininma meneliti tiga kartu yang jatuh di hadapan mereka bertiga. Si Dungu, Dua Cawan, Sang Kekasih. Dininma terkejut dengan hasil kartu yang keluar. Ini bukanlah kebetulan, pikirnya. Thon, pria misterius adik Pien Nard ini mungkin…

“ Hahaha, bukan berantem, lebih tepatnya gak tau apa yang mau diomongin, gak ada topik aja.” Loif menyampingkan masalah dan perasaannya.

“ Koko saya emang agak gak beres otaknya, tapi jangan berantem sama dia ya, gitu-gitu dia baek kok,”

“ hahahhaa, udahlah sana masuk kelas elu yang baru, semangat ya pertama kuliah.”

“ okeee makasihhh ko Loif!” Benar, benak Loif berbicara dengan diri sendirinya, lebih baik tidak perlu berbicara apa-apa, bersikap sewajarnya, berbicara dengan Pien seperluadanya.

“ Ehem.” Loif mulai kesal ketika mendengar suara dehaman dari Dininma.

“ Ada apa lagi, Din? Mau ngomong apa lagi?”

“ Itu tadi adeknya Pien ya?”

“ Iya, kenapa, naksir ya? Sana ambil, masih brondong, segar, udah ya jangan gangguin gua!” pinta Loif ingin balik ke kelasnya, Dininma menyeletus

“ Dia mungkin jodoh elu loh..”

“ Hah? Apa lagi coba?”

“ Beneran, ini ada kartu Si Dungu, ceritanya elu tuh dungu.”

“ Jadi elu mau ngatain gua goblok?” Loif kembali bertanya, kali ini badannya secara frontal menghadapi gadis ini.

“ Makanya dengerin gua dulu, ini kartu namanya Si Dungu, dan gua gak ngomong elu tolol, dan ini ada dua cawan kalo mungkin cinta baru akan lahir dalam hati elu, dan elu nantinya harus memilih antara si engko dan adek.” Dininma tampaknya serius sekali menjelaskan isi kartu tarot yang keluar dari pouchnya tadi, dengan sepenuh hati ia menunjukkan gambar kartu itu ditebar dengan beludru merah tuanya.

Loif tampaknya tak tertarik dan segera melangkah kakinya ke lantai keramik kelasnya.

Tampak dengan jelas pemandangan yang tidak mengenakkan hati Loif. Pien sibuk menarik rambut Teby, gadis yang cukup dekat dengan pria itu sekarang. Tapi apalah mau dikatakan oleh Loif yang tak punya hak apa-apa, hanya bisa menyimpan api dalam sekam.

“ Ya udah deh, elu gak mau dengerin gua gak apa-apa, biar elu sakit hati sendiri, gua harus kuliah dulu ya, nanti gua gangguin elu lagi.” Dininma sepertinya melihat jam di tangan kirinya dan segera menuju kelasnya.

Loif menuju bangkunya, dan merasa kesal kenapa harus menderita sendirian seperti ini setiap hari. Kenapa dirinya harus dengan sempatnya melihat kemesraan mereka berdua,

dan bagaimana caranya bisa melupakan kalau tiap hari dijejali dengan pemandangan busuk ini? Ia kembali merenung sembali mengorek isi tasnya dengan iseng.

Ada barang aneh yang memasuki tasnya. Ternyata pouch pink berisi Bohemian Gothic Tarot yang kepunyaan Dininma, sial, pikir Loif, beraninya dia masukin barang ke tas orang.

Tetapi Bohemian Gothic begitu indah, klasik, cantik membuat Loif menelusuri wajah kartu si Dungu, Dua Cawan, dan Sang Kekasih secara terus-terusan.

“ Dia itu nanti jodoh elu, Loif.”

Ah tololnya aku, bisa kemakan omongan cewek freak itu. Ia menutup kartu itu kembali ke pouchnya sembari menunggu kelas selesai.

-…-

Loif berdiri di depan teras universitas. Hujan mulai turun, gemercak gemercak air mulai bercinta dengan tanah. Hawa sejuk mulai memeluk tubuh manusia dengan kasar, aroma cinta air dan tanah mulai tercium dengan tajam. Momen yang menyenangkan untuk Loif.

“ Ko Loif belom pulang?” seseorang menyapa Loif dari belakang pundaknya, Loif mengenal suara itu, Thon Nard datang sembari mengeluarkan payung.

“ Hari ini saya gak bawa motor, si engko kampret itu juga gak mau pulang dulu, mau ikut ekskul. Ko Loif gak ada payung buat hujan ya?”

“ Gua nggak tau hari ini bakal hujan.” Thon tertawa karena mendengar alasan Loif yang polos,

“ ya siapa yang tau kalo hari ini hujan?”

“ ramalan cuaca di berita. Lupa liat tadi pagi, tapi gua suka banget sama hujannya, seperti mengasihani gua karena keadaan gua sekarang ini.”

“ Waduh, lagi stres ya? Jangan stres dong, udah lah pulang bareng sama saya aja?”

“ hah?”

“ Iya daripada bengong, kebetulan rumah kita kan gak jauh, nanti dari rumah saya, saya bisa pinjemin payung biar ko Loif bisa pulang, gimana?”

“ Aduh ngerepotin nih..”

“ zaman gini masih basa-basi gitu? Hahahaa, ayo lah jalan.” Loif sepayung bersama dengan Thon.

Tidak ada curiga yang berlebihan, dan tidak merasa ada keanehan terjadi.

“ Eh Thon, sekarang gimana udah naksir sama orang?”

“ Ada sih, cinta lama, cuman kayaknya dia gak naksir sama saya.”

“ Oh ya, masa? Cakep gini gak mau?”

“ Hahahaha, masalahnya yang dia naksir lebih cakep dari saya, ya walaupun udah sering stres dan sedih, ya semoga aja bisa nemu yang baru.”

“ Bener ya, semoga aja bisa nemu yang baru…” pinta Loif menyetujui perkataan Thon dan menyentuh besi payung bergantian dengan Thon. Thon tampaknya tak sengaja melihat mimik lesu Loif.

“ Waduh, hahaha, ko Loif lagi patah hati ya? Sama siapa?”

“ Hah kacau elu, gak lah, biasa aja, emang muka gua gini..” Loif terpinta kaget karena Thon memerhatikannya. Mereka berdua tertawa sepanjang perjalanan menuju halte transjakarta. Beberapa mobil sepertinya melaju kencang, Loif yang berjalan di pinggir-pinggir Teras sepertinya was-was takut tersiram air becek aspal.

Tak disangka sebuah mobil melaju kencang dan cipratan air nya sebentar lagi mengenai Loif

“ Awas ko Loif!”

Thon menarik tubuh Loif ke tubuhnya, serasa seperti menempelkan tubuh Loif secara mendadak ke tubuh Thon, cipratan itu tidak berhasil menodai tubuh Loif. Di tengah hujan seperti ini, Loif cukup terkejut atas tindakan Thon, sepertinya Thon pula refleks atas gerakannya, ia segera melepas rangkulannya.

“ Aduh Sorry, refleks.” Katanya salah tingkah.

“ Wah gak apa-apa lah, gua justru mau bilang makasih karena berhasil menyelamatkan gua dari cipratan.”

“ Hahaha, sama-sama, yuk kita jalan, busnya udah dateng.” Loif tak menyangka meskipun Thon satu saudara dengan Pien, namun kepribadian mereka berbeda satu sama lain.

Apa yang seharusnya Loif pikirkan? Ia harus berusaha melupakan Pien. Tak ada lagi yang bisa diharapkan dari cinta si Dungu. Tak ada yang bisa. Loif membiarkan setetes hujan meresap dalam pori-pori kulitnya, berharap menerima anugerah Tuhan yang untuk membantunya melupakan Pien.

Namun kehadirannya dan kedekatannya dengan Thon membuatnya tak terduga. Biarkan hal ini melanjut, biarkan hujan terus merindukan sosok tanah, biarkan waktu terus berlarut, sampai pada akhirnya selesai dan tidak akan pernah bertemu lagi dengan Pien. Ya, tinggal beberapa saat lagi kelulusan akan ada di depan mata.

as you can see. the real size is at 70 x 50 cm, which i printed on high quality paper and hanged on such a high quality canvas stand. the score is 76, thank you God

this assignment was about creating a whole mind map telling about the product/branch that i wanna advertise. to help me find solution or big ideas for my advertisement later.

i’m doing an advertisement for konveksi baju anak perempuan, or maybe in English is a company that make children’s clothes especially girls. and it tells from the history of the company till the big ideas that i wanna tell people the speciality of this company. enjoy it if you have time

TA-DAAAA!!

here’s my last copy of Fantastic Menagerie Tarot! i have my big thanks to good Bookstores that supply the last stock and may shipping to Indonesia! although i faced many hard times to acquiring this deck but it makes me so happy. i read the book and i was got full information, if you had the chance to buy the tarot and companion book, do not missed the companion book, it really helps you what the designers want to tell you about.

and i got more new wisdom, such as having conversation with tarot! i do have my self have the chance to speak with tarot, they seemed alive and maybe of my little imagination, is like i’m having conversation face to face with them. i love how Paula Goodman Wilder read, similar to mine!

oh by the way, i did have conversation with Fantastic Menagerie. i asked only 3 questions:

1. how do you feel about me?
2. what’s your special abilities?
3. how’s our teamwork will be?

feeling about me-knight of wands.

i am looking at the fat unicorn guy, who seemed very wise, and holding wands, he seemed experience

” what do you looking at, punk?!” ask him, i am scared though, he’s very galak

” um nothing, i just ask fantastic menagerie what do you guys felt about me and suddenly you appear.”

” hmph, no need to ask again, you are the same with me, you have a little fats just like my belly, you have a wonderful and mystical power in your head, you are full of imagination! just like my long and sturdy horn.”

i smalled my eyes,” you don’t have to be that narcist, sir.”

” yes! you are narcist too! the same way that i feel, yet we are full of pride, remember even when someone like ants/ bugs looking at us, remember to stay cool and furious,just like Vin Diesel!”

” Do you really know about Vin Diesel?”

” oh shut up, by the way, you are really a rushed person, you can be aggresive too sometimes, but seemed you and i holding the same feelings, thoughtfullness.”

” i think so.”

” you are full of creative too, remember, i maybe ressambles of what you are in the present, we will meet again someday.”

“eww..”

what’s your speciality – Page of Wands

” Hi There..” i said hi

” Ssst, i’m waiting.”
” waiting what.”

” ssst.. this is the essence, we are the same elements, wands, i think we are very good animal-peoples who does wait for the time comes, remember we have to prepare any kind of situation when the time comes!”

” oh i see, so you can tell me anything that i want to ask.”

” yes, i can tell you all possible directions to wait and to act, but wait, remember, wait.”

“…”

how’s our teamwork gonna be? – Nine of Swords

i saw two woman and her child felt down, strangers who walked on the same path was surprised too

” hello, mi..”

” Oh my God! are you okay, my child?” are you okay?”

” why? wha’s happen?”

” you help me, my child, oh no, are you gonna help my son? please?”

” i will.”

” thanks, i’m so worry, you are worry too, right?”

” yes.”

” i think we should calm ourselves and not to worry a lot, it maybe takes a time to make my son smile after of his falling down, but, we will make it, i help you how to do it, and you help me take care of my son.”

” okay, miss.”

i thank her for trusting me, and it seemed that i’m worrying a lot lot.

so i will get a good companion with her, i am too worry that i can’t communicate well with this deck, but she sensed very accurate!! i love this deck!

just got this a couple days ago. i am so happy i can get one of this while the stock on Amazon seemed less now. i love the artwork, even though i detest grotesque gothic but i’m okay with this. to be truth, maybe i was such more into a GOSURORI or maybe like sweet gothic or such as lolita, but not too much lolita, my eyes were sick of pop art scene and candy-candy, lollipops (oh God, i’m vomiting). but i think this artbook was stunning in every kind of aspect, i admire designers from abroad they have nice finishing concept design, and they explained it very comprehensive.

oh well enough with stupid review from me, i got a reading for my mom, and i find myself reading very accurate, and the deck was astonishingly beautiful, and increase the accuracy of my reading too below the Bohemian Gothic Tarot

i am starting to thinking i thank God i can meet Bohemian Gothic, now it seemed that i hate Victorian Romantic because i cannot meet her. and why should everybody give a high price for such a deck. if you know how you love her, you do not treat her like things, you must treat her can meet with other people that needs and love her too. i am starting to hate the person i beg for selling me the VR, and she just say,” i can’t do that, it’s no fair to others.” HELLO? does everybody begs you like me? i don’t think so, and since then i’m thinking how stupid i am if i’m willing to pay $800 for just cards? $100 for cards? do they know that in here shipping and something etc SUCKS. i have to pay customs and bla bla bla. but now i don’t care anymore. i am trying to get over with Victorian Romantic. i am trying not to like in tarot deck anymore. ( i mean in buying, not in reading.)

and in fact that people sucks, it’s true/